Tuesday, December 03, 2002
State: all.nighter in progress.Current Status: .. ask me what time it is. go on. ;)
i have semi-quasi-recuperated from the last post -- im sorry for my malodramaticism about school. i was just paralyzed with disappointment. :(
but thanks to my friends for not being scared off by my schizo gibberish. thankyou.thankyou.thankyou.
second guess : if im doing what i like doing, and im trying twice as hard as everyone else -- why do i fall short of my expectations?
do i need to come to terms with the fact that im just plain dumb? inefficient? incapable?
i feel defeated.
my friend said tonight that there are wars that im not meant to fight.
but whats the passion in living if you dont fight on the side you love?
im so lost . . .
is this growing up? i wish i knew. i wish i could go back to the days where we thought we knew. remember hs seniors had it all figured out. knew where to go and how to go. ... maybe the world was smaller than, or maybe perspectives narrower then.. either or.
somewhere along the way the concrete path faded.
i guess we're learning.. everyday.
is this emotionally healthy for us tho? the older we are the more scars we accumulate?
if we are indeed wiser, are we really happier?
to do list for the week :
. 2 hws
. 2 labs
. a term paper
. oral presentation
. newsletter
. writing our MC script for culture night
. tableshifts . tableshifts . tableshifts .
first final starts on monday.
the next one tue and then wed ... on and on.
non academic tibit :
we received 2 tickets on the way up to nyc on friday - one for speeding, the other for wreckless driving.
we were there for an hour until i discovered that biggie wasnt there and that ::dumdumdum:: >> one of yall lied to me. }:D
then i drove home and came face to face with my mother at 5 am.
chendaddy:
Reach for the moon. If you miss, at least the fall will kill you.
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